Decisions...

I've decided to make this my official TTC blog.. I don't think too many people from facebook are officially "following me" so I feel comfortable going ahead with some details I normally would definitely keep to myself.. So please.. If you are a facebook friend and you happen to read this.. I don't want to share or discuss our TTC journey there.. At least not yet. We want to be a little private about it so there aren't too many questions or a lot of pressure. As soon as we get our BFP, we will shout it from the rooftops! In the meantime, having somewhere to write down all my feelings that are bottled up inside is very important to me. Otherwise I might go nuts! =)

So, let's start at the beginning I guess.. lol.. Aaron and I decided we wanted to try to conceive in December of 2009. The decision was pretty sudden. We've always talked about it, and wanted it, but it always seemed like "it wasn't the right time". We finally decided that if we waited for "the right time" we'd be waiting forever.. lol.. So there you go! We were very excited in the beginning, but pretty soon it became apparent that things were going to be a little tougher for us..

I stopped taking birth control just before christmas and we started trying right away. My last period had been on December 6th, so we thought we were jumping in at just the right time. My period was late in January and at first I thought that we'd gotten lucky on the first try!! I wish..
I didn't get my period and kept getting negative after negative when I tested.. And from there it was pretty much all downhill. I didn't have a period (thus not ovulating) at all for 6 months.. I was pretty worried during that time that something was seriously wrong, but we didn't have any medical insurance yet. Finally in April, Aaron's new job approved us for it. I was extremely relieved and excited and made my first appointment for May 7th.

The first appointment was extremely positive. I really liked my doctor and we talked for almost 2 hours. I was shocked that it lasted that long and I felt really positive in the end. I had to randomly select her on a website and just went off of names.. It turns out she has a very strong background in infertility and we came up with a plan of attack right away. The very next day I went to the hospital for my very first blood draw.. I was scared, but Aaron came with me and held my hand.. =) I drank lots of fluids and it went really well. My blood was getting tested for PCOS, hypothyroidism, diabetes, and hormone levels. I was really really scared and nervous while I waited for the results. I went back for my second appointment and was very relieved to find out that everything came back normal. There was no real reason or explanation as to why I wasn't ovulating. I just wasn't. The doctor decided to start me on 2 different medications to help me start my first official TTC cycle.

I started taking provera in the last week of May and I had to take it for 10 days. 3 days after my last pill, my period, LONG OVERDUE, finally came! It was not pleasant, let's just leave it at that. It lasted 9 long days and I was so glad when it was over! My new cycle had finally begun! This was Day 1. Starting on Day 3 I had to start the other medication, clomid. The purpose of it was to help me ovulate. My moods on clomid were a little off. I got cranky during the evenings and I had pretty bad hot flashes, but all in all, it wasn't too bad. On cycle day eleven, last sunday June 20th, I had to start testing with ovulation prediction kits.. So that brings us to now! I haven't had a positive yet, but it's still early! I really really hope I ovulate, otherwise we're back at square one!

So there... Our TTC journey so far in a nutshell.. I will keep this updated with information as it comes along! I hope that soon, this will become my pregnancy blog :)