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I got a hold of my doctor today. I guess maybe her office forgot to pay their phone bill, or the phone lines were down for some reason? But either way. I did talk to her today. I told her about my two 28 day cycles, and she seemed happy about it, in her own unenthusiastic way. What was the hardest though is when I first called (it had been about 3 months since I last had) and the receptionist recognized my name (Peachey? NO!) she basically started squealing and asked if I was calling to say I was pregnant. Thanks, but no. I am not.

The main reason for my call was to ask about the Metformin dose, and unfortunately, or fortunately, whichever way you look at it, she wants me to keep going up until I get to 2000mgs per day. She said that it will help me lose weight a lot faster if I stay on track and that lowering my carb/sugar intake will help control how I'm feeling physically. Yea yea yea, I knew that. That's why I stopped taking it in the first place lol. I guess I just need to get back on track and stick to it.

Seems like that's all I'm saying on this blog lately. Get back on track, stay on track. You wouldn't think it would be hard to stay motivated when the end product will be the start to our family.. but darkness can easily swallow you up, let me tell you. At first you don't realize it, and next thing you know, you're way off course and it's just easier to keep going that way. Nothing "right" is easy, is it. Not that I didn't realize that before, but I really do now. Ah well. I'm tired of saying, here's to a new beginning. So eff that. Here's to a continuance. Here's to another shot at making the effort to do this.

Well ...

What do you know, I've had another natural 28 day cycle. sheesh. And to top it off, I think I might be ovulating! I have no way of knowing for sure, as I don't have any OPKs on hand, but I have a slight feeling telling me it might be happening. I had some EWCM the other day right at CD14 (aka, the ultimate "normal girl" O day) and I've been on a roller coaster of emotions and mood swings today hahaha. Good times. Could just be in my head, but I guess I'll see!

I got REALLY sick this last weekend when I upped my dose of Metformin to 1000mgs and ate poorly. Yuck. So Monday I decided to call my Dr and talk about the dosage since we technically aren't currently TTC. I have her number saved in my phone and did everything as usual, and the number to her office is disconnected!! WTF. I tried getting in contact with her another way, since she worked out of that particular clinic too, but I'll be pretty upset if the Dr I've been working with for nearly a year and whom I've made so much progress with, just fell off the face of the earth without letting her patients know! Not to mention if that clinic went out of business for some unkown reason, who the hell has my medical records, if God forbid, I have to start over with a new OBGYN? I guess maybe the RE's office may have them, but I've only been there once. Ugh, kind of annoyed here.

But anyway! It's interesting to see what my body is doing on it's own!